This made me way too happy.

I forgot, I finished this! Isn't it lovely? I think it came out really nicely.



http://nursetab.deviantart.com/art/Ancient-Hyrulian-Scroll-xstch-142556983

I did it.

Jack, Matt and I have our own place and it's awesome.
I'm so happy with everything right now. Job, friends, relationship, living. Everything.
Holy fuck YES.

..
Oh, I bought a month of WoW last night.
;3

I'm getting there..
And that's all that matters.

Kind of funny that I finished this on moving day.
I started on March/17th but did a bunch of things in between. Learned to knit, several commissions and Oblivion. Heh.



Now all I need is a home to hang it in.
Today sucks.

Since it has been way too hot and my hair was getting way too long Jack and I cut a lot off today.

This is how much was cut off. The Gameboy is to show scale.


And here is me making a stupid face.


For reference it was about this long:


Yeah, apparently I take a lot of pictures in my bathroom, go figure.
I can't wait for my first shower. I love washing short hair.

Wow, a lot has happened and I have a lot to say.

Well, where to start..
I got a job at a strip club working coat check thanks to a friend named Alex and Shawna was part, too.
I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. I have to do paper work and stuff and I don't want to mess up.
I really don't think fucking up there would be wise. I'm sure once I learn it all it will be a piece of slutty cake.
Sept/15 is when I start and I go in for a week of training before that, so wish me luck and all that.

I'll be moving in with my Grandma temperately until Jack and I can get our own place, or I get room mates.
I don't want to push him into it because he still seems so scared and unsure of him self, but I know he's great.
Viewit.ca always has lots of great places for any situation, so if you wanna be room mates, let me know!

I got really, really messed up last weekend, I thought it was a bang to my August and to make up for my birthday.
Boy was I wrong. It was really good and what not but I finally felt my first real hang over on the Sunday morning.
Friday night was a really awesome impromptu party held by Adam and I only got kinda drunk, that was nice.
But Saturday I drank more than I can even remember. Huge parts of the night are a blur and not even there.
Though I did experience the happiness moment ever though, so I guess that's worth it in the long run, hahaha.
Sitting in a pool on a sunny after noon, slightly buzzed, floating on a pool noodle eating a cheese burger. Oh yeah.
I think I smoked a cigar, I have a faint memory of that. I was so drunk, I don't even have pictures, nothing! Just my mind.

Then the following Monday I was at Jack Astor's with friends and were enjoy a nice dinner together when I got bad acid.
I order fajitas--oh lucky me--so the acid was really bad but I was so hungry and I really wanted to finish my meal, bad idea.
After being home for awhile and chewing back a lot of antacids I noticed my throat started to hurt..really really bad, swollen bad.
So I go in the bathroom and check down my throat with a flash light and my right tonsil is pretty fucking big with white spots.
I told Jack to look at it and he said that I probably was getting tonsillitis and I was all "Fuuuuuucccck" I didn't want this at all.

So I wake up Tuesday morning and I feel like death. Can barely move, in so much pain, BOTH tonsils swollen, yep. Fuck.
Jack had his first day at his internship so he had to go so I ended up watching a lot of Pimp my Ride and Food network.
He brought me popsicles, and orange juice and and sorbet and made me soup. I really appreciated it being so sick.
So days go by and I know I should go to a doctor but I hate doctors, but I finally gave in on Friday and it was actually nice.
It was a really nice British doctor and he said I had "sad tonsils" and I got my prescription and everything should be gone soon.

I finally found the green nail polish I was looking for. That was awesome.
I finished my Billy Mays cross stitch last night:


I need to finish up my commissioned work and then and they get more commissioned work..haha.

Well, I think that's everything.

I had fun at the cottage, and stayed busy.


http://nursetab.deviantart.com/art/Wish-You-Were-Here-129577776


http://nursetab.deviantart.com/art/It-s-All-Perspective-129578338


http://nursetab.deviantart.com/art/Lost-at-Sea-129578818


http://nursetab.deviantart.com/art/Lava-Clouds-129579487

I have a ton more, I took way too many pictures this weekend.
I also finished my first knitting project, haha. A head band:


The left side looks so good, but I messed up a bit on the right and added extra stitches some how..hahaha.

I have about 200 more pictures to go through to find really good gems.

And there is already a depiction on how it's probably gonna look:


I'm not stoked to say the least.

I tried sleeping at around 4 am with Jack. We were all cuddling and it was great.
Then about an hour later I had a night terror and freaked out. I always feel so insane.
He calmed me down and we went back to snuggling. Not even half an hour later..again.

What the fuck. I hate how my night terrors just come and go as they please. FUCK.
And now I'm awake now. I'll probably sleep after he gets up for school so I don't wake him up.
There isn't even anything for me to do, I just feel strung out now and want to sleep.

BUT HERE!
I finished my current project!




If you can guess the poster that is reflected on the glass in the frame, you're awesome.

My life:

-The Donnas/Blondie/Pat Benatar tour ISN'T coming to Canada
+I'm almost done my cross stitchin' for Theo!
+I'm lined up for two more: Andrea (sushi) and Farrel (Z is for Zelda shield)
-I'm on my period and right now (more than ever) mother nature is fucking with me
+/-I can't stop playing Oblivion
+SKOOOOOOOMAAAAA SKOOMA
+Drag Me To Hell
+Sex two days in a row
-I'm getting stretch marks in the weirdest spots and it makes me really sad. I don't even EAT that much any more!
+Making lots of cross stitch patterns. I made a Frankenstein sprite and now I'm working on a Donnnas logo.

FUCK FUCK FUCK
Let tomorrow go well and try to realign my life. Ok? Ok!

Have you ever heard a death rattle before?
Do you think it'll live up to its name?
Or will it just be a death hairball?

Prepare to evacuate soul.
Ten,
nine... eight...

How could Tyler, of all people, think it was a bad thing that Marla Singer was about to die?

Five,
four...

I have so much hate running through my body my entire skull aches from grinding my teeth together.

It's a lot of things, really.
What the fuck. No seriously, what the fuck.

I just painted my toe nails red and black alternating. I feel so pimp, like one of those pimp.
It's Harley Quinn inspired. I think I'm going to take white nail polish and make a little harlequin design on the big toe.

..and this is my life.

I have an interview at a Blockbuster on Tuesday.
I actually really want that job because I love movies and video games.

Also, Oblivion makes me laugh A LOT.
ANNNNNNNND I can't stop listening to Mother Mother

I had two friends ask me if would make them something on the same day.
It's only been a dream of mine to actually be able to make stuff to sell to people.
So if you have anything you want made, PLEASE ask me!

I can cross stitch, collage, sew, design, draw and paint (a bit), almost anything crafty!
And above all I'm very creative and could offer creativity!

This would be a great help to me at this time, so think about it!
I'd be very reasonable with prices as I almost feel bad for charging right now.

This is the pattern I made for Theo!

This is a link to a bigger version of the actual pattern:
http://i44.tinypic.com/2vwd15v.png

Thanks much!
-Tabby

For the past week or so I keep having the most vivid dreams of dying.
Each dream is always so different and elaborate. It's really fucking me up.
I already feel fairly sullen and then even my dreams are sad. Fuck you, subconscious.

"Marla's philosophy of life is that she might die at any moment.
The tragedy, she said, was that she didn't."

Death is around every corner.
I can't believe David Carradine is dead from his own hand. I can't beleive he hung himself.
I'd really like to know what was going on in his dead. That or Kiddo is superninja.

I just read that apparently his hands were tied behind his back and foul play is suggested.

"Carradine was found by a hotel maid Thursday morning with a rope tied around his neck and another around his genitals in a Bangkok hotel room"

Oh dear.

I'm just thinking back on things I've masturbated with right now.
What are some things you've used?

During Christmas break when visiting with my parents I forgot to pack a toy.
So I ended up going grocery shopping, getting myself a cuucumber for myself.
Luckily I had a condom in my toiletry bag. It was a Merry Christmas to me!

-Rock-a-Stack
-Cuucumber and carrot
-End of Pool cue
-end of bike lock
-oblong light bulb (That could of ended bad)
-Handles to things
-Dildos (duh)
-Lightsaber toy
-Brush handle
-This light up pen thing
-Razor handle
-Back scrubber handle
-This mini shampoo bottle
-candle
-Fingers (double duh)
-Marker

I'm trying to think of more. I'll add to the list if I can.

Ps: I'VE FINISHED THE CASTLE!

I've sketched out the top part and it's gonna look fabulous.

Jack did this for class and dedicated it to me.
God damn I love MSI. I feel so useful, too. He asked me to help him with most of the ideas.

What a lovely weekend!

I spent it at my cottage with my family. How LOVELY!
On the SUNNY BEACHES OF CANADA, suckas. It was only sunny today, though.
I enjoy the rain. There was a huge storm and lightening and wind and it was awesome.
The electricity in the air, the sounds, the smells, I wanted to sleep in it I loved it so much.
I enjoyed S'mores, lots of movies, puppy!!! and eating all the time.







My step brother. He is so paranoid now.


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So, I dyed my hair. It went a bit, errrr, redder than I thought it would.
I think it reacting to how bleached my hair was made it do that. Science!
I was going for strawberry blonde but I got more of a Mary Jane from the Spiderman movies thing.



Side note:
Man, my birthday party is gonna rule.

I just had the most accomplished day of my life.
Well at least for the last month, I swear. It was intense and awesome.

So I woke up around 9:30 and got ready to go out. Big day, big day!
Jack, Amber, Jay, myself and ALEXIS headed out into the morning mist.
They dropped me off at Square One to drop off some resumes and stuff.
I wasn't going to buy anything but Old Navy actually had something fucking adorable.
It was this red hoodie with white polka dots. It was so cozy and on sale and cute. I love it.
So I'm walking around, checking out places, enjoying time alone for the first time in awhile.
I go into Green Earth and they had this big section of fairy figurines. They had so many!
Soon as I get up in there this attractive older guy with several ear piercings comes up to me.
"Cute, aren't they? I have a bunch at home.."
Needless to say the entire time I was there he was talking to me and hitting on me.
Balltown that they weren't hiring cause I'm sure I would of just the job for being real.
He guessed me at 17. I laughed so hard. He also laughed because I think he felt more releaved.
Nothing much more eventful at the mall but I handed in a lot of resumes which was good! YEAH!

So while I was there they went to a wholesaler to get some groceries which was 2 birds to say the least.
Headed to M&M meats and got some, well..meat! Then to Wal-Mart to get the rest of our groceries.
I got some hair dye--yes, again--because my blonde doesn't look as good as I wanted it to.
And the bottom is still reddish so my color will cover that up. CAN YOU GUESS WHAT IT IS?
I'm gonna dye it after this post and post pictures tomorrow, so you'll JUST have to wait. OH NOO.
After groceries we headed home, put them away and watched a bit of Threesome with Kevin Smith--again.
THEN it was off to the laundry mat with at least 2 and half weeks of laundry. Hoo boy, it was crazy.
So once we got everything in the washers we headed down the road to the EB to trade in some more games.
Jack and I picked up "Marble Saga" which is 2 player animal ball Monkeyball type action! Looks fun!
Went back, put our laundry in the dryer and went in the plaza and got subs at SUBWAY.
THEN went back, folded our clothes and while Jay was still folding I cross stitched a bunch.
After getting home and resting for the first time (really) all day I was just sitting at my computer.
Not really doing anything important then all of a sudden "NO MEANS NO' by RICKI J popped into my head.
I started to sing it and Jack and I loaded it up on YouTube at the same time and started to play it.
This launched the best and longest session of my favorite game, ever! "Play music from 1986 to 2004!"
We went on for like 2 and 1/2 hours. We played like the best and worst. We danced, jammed and sang.
And Jack and I came up with the best idea, ever.
We're gonna rent the Meadowvale Community center--you know, WHERE THE HAD THE OLD DANCES!--and have my birthday there.
But no, no ordinary party. It's gonna be a middle/high school dance party nostalgia queer as fuck-a-thon.
It's 20 bucks for every hour and a 100 dollar deposit you get back. How fucking sweet is that!
Rules: You need to wear clothes from that time period, no exceptions.
So far, that's it. But you get the idea. Gonna be the best birthday ever.

This spawned into a 2 and 1/2 hour Rock Band session. First we played like 22 of 53 songs off the 90's play list.
The Jay, Amber and I played a 5 set playlist where I got to play drums. Man I love the drums so much.
AND NOW FINALLY. I'm doing next to nothing. Jack is playing World Tour on the Wii while I internet.
Gonna dye my hair, shower, get in bed and cross stitch to a movie or play video games with Jack.

Good day, good day.

Ps: Everyone is invited to this party. I mean it, everyone. Fuck it!

Placebo covers one of my favorite Smith songs.
So good. So good. So good.

Sometimes listening to Bratmobile is so satisfying.

I had a really fucked up dream about someone I haven't spoken to in over a year.
We used to be friends than we just kind of "broke up" if you will some what very suddenly.
In high school we used to say she was my older sister because we looked a like. It was nice.

We were at my old house and my mom was having some sort of dinner party and she was there.
I brought her outside and I started to tell her that I always thought despite everything we were good friends.
She just sat very still and shook her head and said our friendship was over for good.
Not in the dream, but I just don't know why it ended. It kind of fucked me up, actually.
So then we're just sitting on my stoop. I think I started to cry but I can't remember.
Then, the strangest turn of events to happen in a realistic dream, ever. She kissed me.
She pulled me closer into her and just started passionately kissing me. I was blown away.
I had so many things go through my head but then I just continued to make out with her.

Well, I don't know if I want to go into really extreme detail, but we ended up in my room.
It got really heated, to say the least. It was really, really messed up.

I try really hard not to think about the 2 girls I used to be friends with.
It hurts me because I feel it just made my life fall apart. Which is weird.

This dream came right out of left field.
I wonder what it means?

Laughing for hours and hours at hilarious YouTube videos made me feel better.